Something I never thought I'd do

Most of you have known me for a very long time. When most people describe me its always the same HAPPY, SWEET, HAPPY, CARING,HAPPY. I am a happy person. I mean look at my boys, how could I not be? What I'm getting at is I was always that happy kid and I was also always the chunky kid. My weight has never bothered me. I am married to the love of my life who uplifts me daily. My parents never talked negatively about my body. Positive body image CHECK! I have it. Im not depressed because I weigh 330 lbs. I am ready to change it though for my boys. I want to be here with them as long as possible and if I can prolong my life by being healthier then thats what I'm going to do. I don't have a weight loss goal. I do, however, have a goal to run a 5k.  I want to be able to run the whole thing without stopping and feeling great about it!Another goal is to have my uplifting Husband, actually lift me up :D it will happen! I don't know how i'm going to get there but I will. I've realized I have to do it, no one else can make me but me. I know i'll have all the support in the world. I'm asking you guys to keep me in check! Short blog but I needed to do this so I can hold myself accountable. I almost posted some before pictures but I'm not really ready to share those.Instead I'll share these which show my flub but under clothes :D

Thanks for reading!

Fin Frands

The red-headed stud that started all these shenanigans

      Well it's been a minute...This will be the story of  how Chris and I became an "us" <3 Barf.

         I want to start at the beginning, not because its fantastic, but it started this way. I was in 10th grade choir and was sat next to my soon to be bff Jessica, whose boyfriend was Chris. Oh no Kacey! You didn't? How could you! Just hear me out.
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        He thought I was a boy before we met because everyone still called me Charley back then. We spent a great deal of time hanging out and such with a group of friends from church. Chris and I became friends. I had no romantic feelings toward this ginger what so ever.
        Weeks passed, summer came, and they broke up. I was a great bff! Sleepovers, grapes/watermelon, and crazy immature fun! I also shunned my new friend Chris for the sake of my bff Jess.  My Momma missed him coming over to the house. I didn't worry about it though. He was cool but Jess was like a sister to me so it was nothing to drop that friendship for her. A few month later Jess encouraged me to talk to him, our parents had became bff's so going to his house was inevitable, so I did. He was a great friend we talked on yahoo messenger and hung out with the old group again. We had a pretend wedding with Jess officiating. After this he suggested we go on Husband and Wife dates. I was all for it! We had so much fun just hanging out, did I mention he was a great friend. In my mind that's what he was, a friend. We went to places like the movies, swinging at the playground, and walmart :D. He came to my house watched movies and hung out with my Momma. Oh no! I was falling for him. I can't like him, Jess will hate me. So quit hanging out with him.It hurt so much to think I would hurt my best friend
    It wasn't long after this Jess,without me knowing, had a convo with Chris. Chris is a VERY private person. She asked if he liked me "Sure, I like everyone" blah blah blah. after much prodding from Jess he finally said "yes, I like Kacey more than just a friend" WHAT! this was news to me but I must hide my admiration! Jess then went on to say that she knew we were meant for each other. She asked me if I liked him, I couldn't lie to her. Who got the wheel moving? Jessica (thank you girl! I am eternally grateful) He started coming over again. I still doubted that he liked me more than a friend until he held my hand. Then when I wasn't looking he was very sneaky and kissed me. Blush*aww *mush. December 11th, it was getting late and he had to be home so I walked him outside it was FREEZING! He stood there FOR-EV-ER looking up shuffling his feet and being all fidgety. He grabbed my hand looked into my eyes and said "What are the chances of a boy like you and a girl like me taking this relationship a step further" Kacey was very confused. This was a reference to his favorite movie Dumb and Dumber (my mom never let me watch it) so I reply with a super confused look on my face" ummmm good??" We laughed (mushy stuff) then said our goodbyes, it was past his curfew. I'm sure i'll finish the story of my lubba and me later but this is all for now.

Fin Frands